Breaking Free

Breaking free the cords that bind me
And my soul
Realizing I have lost the love
that was my own

Plunging in the ocean
Forgetting my fears
Desiring to see the invisible
and explore the unknown

I wish to be lost now, never to be found
To see the world without the veil which blinded my sight
I realize now that love is but a mirage
Caused by the nasty sand which mocks the passers-by

I now wait for my perfect one
And the one who is for me
One who’d help me in setting me free
Seek me, O ! never to renown.

my heart is but empty

Lot of love, lot of pain, lot of hatred and loads of fights
I think all day, about my life
The one that has been
And the one that will be
I once was a person
Happy and alive
Full of all the colors of life
When I met him on the way
Who stole my smile
Lot of love, lot of pain, lot of hatred and days of fight
Lead to nothing but a broken belief

I moved on after months of tears,
whiskey, swears and fears.
I promised not to share my heart
The one which was already so hurt
Until he came and gained my trust
Only to be another, to break it thus

I then ceased to cry and to pity
To be so naïve and flimsy
I had then realized that relationship
means nothing for a guy
So now this is me
after months of betrayal and sobbing

My heart that once was so mushy
Is now just dry and witty
I lack the normal sense of sensitivity
The small rays of hope that used to touch my life
Have abandoned their path that is now charred
I don’t cry now for losing myself
I just accept that my heart that was so full,
Full of emotions so clear
Has been struck by a famine
Leaving nothing there…

Unasked Questions...

They talk about the Big Bang and the Origin of the Universe
They talk about the math of the stars and the movement of the planets
They talk about the temperature of the sun and life on other heavenly bodies
But, does any great mathematician knows the relationship between happiness and time ??
The equation between life and death ??
The scale on which one can measure agony and distress ??
They look everywhere for the answers but do they dare to ask the right questions ??
They call themselves intelligent but what about the intelligence of self ??

India, wake up b4 its too late...

I went to the Tibetan Refugee Centre recently and saw some pics of people in Tibet who tried to access their rights and thus, got their award. I saw photos of young men and women, 17 to 24 yrs of age, their genitals removed, dripping with blood, quitened by the hand of death yet shouting...you could hear their screams of pain...their expressions though stoned...could move your soul...their hands, cold, had the strength to boil your blood...The literature, there, told of all the injustices practised on the Tibetans by the Chinese govt. Their rights curbed, their land and women raped, their culture and civilization on the verge of extinction...

Indian govt should realize that they are our people out dere who got killed...for what? for asking a right to live...wake up b4 it's too late...

Being ME Again

Following my own footsteps, retracing the old path, picking up myself on the way, finding my old god…shedding my dreams now of the broken love…n locking this heart now, swollen n hurt, in a cage forever…losing myself in the darkness and seeking identity in hell…it feels great to be me again…I used to assume I had lost myself but now I know that its when I started thinking this that I lose myself…but now, have found me and my identity, the clue to find my old god, following my own footsteps and crossing the same path…promising to never go back and to stop assuming that someone can love me and that I can be yours…I shed all hope now of us being together and keep the broken dreams to cry forever…your words shall vibrate inside this soul-less cage now and my eyes shall be forever haunted by your smile…but I’ll bear all this thinking that this is what I deserve and that at least my tears would be mine…

Sunshine and Rain...

Walking through the scorching heat
cursing the sun...
Hoping this ball of fire
could be extinguished...

My heart missed a beat the other day
to see the clouds at my rescue...
I fell in love with them
and the showers that followed...

It rained day and night
Pure beads of ecstasy
filling every drain and hole
setting free everyone's fantasy

The earth was quenched
and the air was filled
with the smell of mud
But still it rained day and night
drenching my spirits dull...

Then I wished it'll stop to pour
and I could walk around
I hate the flies and the water
that make my soles wet...

One fine day, he shone his face
and everything shone bright...
I left my lover, to bow in his grace
gratefully accepting the light...

I ceased to hate the rays then
which touched my face
seeing little birds and squirrels
hopping here and there...

All the earth joined in the celebration
to decorate the Home of Sun
the Father of light, the source of life
the Brightest star in sky...

ME, LOVE AND RELATIONSHIPS...

When I walk on this lonely path
Darkness feeds me
When I think of u
My soul bleeds me

Love, a word that fills my heart with sorrow
A word which covers my heart with thorns
The word which defines all emotions n 4 me, the word which empties all…

Relationship, the base of our existence n the reason of my non-existence
The thing which makes humans above all
Leaves me drenched n exhausted and at last…into the mist, I fall…

Loving you...

Loving means walking on broken pieces of glass...
bearing them cut through your skin and hurt your insides, yet walking...

Loving means breathing the noxious fumes of life...
when each second is misery...
thinking that the love will keep you alive and thus breathing...

Loving means seeing your desires die for someone who means your world
you see the blood oozing and yet you keep seeing...

Loving means feeling the darkness surround you...
thin as air yet heavy on your soul...
when you are uncertain of your future and yet you keep feeling...

I am walking, breathing, seeing and feeling for you...
Hope you'll understand...I Love You

Random thoughts...

My life is my punishment…breathing when he’s not near…feeling my pulse when my heart is not there…I feel suffocated at times…if only the old times could come back…if only he could be mine forever…if only…I love you so much…if only I could tell you…if only you could hear me…if only it could happen all over again…

Random thoughts...

Break my heart so that it can beat no more, kill me so that I can exist no more…my soul is trapped in this mortal cage and it wishes to be free…It wants to rest in peace at a place where someone loves me, where someone wants me, where dreams come true, where he can have me, where there is no hurt, no pain, no tears, where there is just sweet laughter to fill our ears…

I Walk Alone...

I walk alone
I walk alone
The path is dreary and the road is long
I walk alone
I walk alone

My destination is far set and foggy
Half visible and half concealed my destiny calls me
My aim is to call upon fame
and I walk alone

I do not feel like wishing
I am too full of words yet empty
My reasons betray me
and I walk alone

There is some one else inside me
He uses my eyes, my ears, my mouth
He shares my soul and my life
Yet when i walk, I walk alone

I dont want to get lost
And i dont want to die
I want people to love me
I am tired of sharing my smile
Dont know when some one will understand me for a while...??
And I'll cease to walk alone...??

Who's the Princess of Pain??

I m the air around her
She breathes me in and she lets me out
I see her, I feel her and today I’ll tell u about her…

She’s like a honeybee
Small n free
To all the people who live in her heart-hive she serves honey
She dances, she sings
And all those who try to hurt her
She stings…

She’s like a fish of the ocean
Living in the open
Who dreams to explore…
She exalts with happiness spraying little drops of laughter all around
But when she cries…she hides all the liquid in her house

She holds secrets in her heart
And she has a sharp mind
She’s afraid to lose herself
Coz ten she’ll b difficult to find
She dreams a lot
And she seeks success
She lackeD motivation
But now she has found
The reason of her life…